Half-dead

The scariest thing in my life is a dream

See, I’m a lot lonelier than I seem
I’m afraid to fall asleep
Because I feel the nightmares creep

In one nightmare I’m alone
No one but me is in my zone
I pray to god for just one friend
But I’m alone until the end

Another dream it starts the same
But the way it ends brings more pain
In this dream I have friends to see
But it’s not long before they leave

In both dreams I feel depressed
My mind can’t take all the duress
And that’s about when it appears
To put an end to all my fears

It seems such a little thing
For all the relief that it brings
A small white bottle filled with pills
I take them all, my pain it kills

At first I die then I awaken
Disappointed, feeling shaken
That dream-death seemed so appealing
An end to thought and pain and feeling

Every night my dream self dies
Without so much as a goodbye
But there I am in my bed
Still alive but no less dead