Animal lover (?)

I warn you. Don’t read if you are scared of accident, blood or something like that or maybe worse. 

What would you do when something bad happen in front of your eyes? What would you feel when you see it? 

I cried all day long. And I found myself still crying while typing this. And I guess I have a little trauma today. 

There was 4 little baby bird trying to cross a street. And they were soo cute. Line up in pair and walking together. They took about 3 minutes to cross half of the street and when they were so near to the end, a car or most accurate is proton saga rush of and … hit one of the little bird. In front of my eyes. The three were frozen at that sight and so do I. Looking at their friend or sister or  brother kena lenyek depan mata diorang. Kau rasa ? They were still small in size and of course they couldn't fly at first. So what do you expect? that they run like a lightning ? Whaatt … There was nothing left when I tried to save it. There was just blood. The little baby bird ruined. And .. and you couldn't even see its head or leg or fur. See what I told ya, they were still a little very very little baby bird …. Just Imagine , when you and your family or friend want to cross a street and suddenly a car hit you and lena seret then lenyek kat situ jugak, what would you feel ?

This is heartbreaking duh. 

And this evening, I lost my kitten. I mean, she’s died. 

The way she died, is so tragic (?) I don't know. I was at the door to see my dad off to work. And it happened so fast, the mother of this kitten miaowing so bad so sudden. And she tried to chase my dad’s car. And… and I saw a white figure and I realised that it’s my kitten. She fell off from the front left tyre and her leg … broken … And I saw some red thing and I realised that it was her inside organ. Usus nya terburai. Isi perut dia terkeluar. And she was trying to walk… but she couldn't . Her mom was crying ( I know how a cat crying ) and yeah she was miaowing so loud , tried to talk to me about her little baby. Dad hold Puteh and I heard she miaow for the last time. And I whisper her name. Couldn’t see her in that condition. Milo , her mother , followed my dad and when dad put her down under a tree, Milo sat beside her. And licking and cleaning her baby. At that time, I know she had left us , forever. 

Kenapa aku kena lihat incident kena lenyek dua kali dalam satu hari ? I’m speechless. All I can do is cry and pray for them. Innalillahi wainna ilaihi rojiun . Al-fatihah

Imagine, when this happen in your life. What would you feel? What would you do? How you gonna endure this trauma?

And I realised one thing, I am an animal lover. Just not insects or snake or something like their species.