Speakof.theheart

Assalamualaikum and hi all, May we all in a good state Insya Allah, So, how long do I shut this blog down? I also can't remember. And can I make a comeback here? Maybe... because I miss writing. First of all, pardon me for my bad grammar and all the mistakes in my writing. It's been too long mehhh hehehehe... And yeah, it's 2020 ! Alhamdulillah Ya Rabb, You still give us chance living our life until today. Basically, it's 5th March 2020 when I write this entry. And I feel like to write just to, you know, pour out something from your heart? They said, we need to have an in-and-out in our life so that its always in balance. And I guess I want to pour out here so it still remain but it'll not being attached to me. And here we goes... So, year of 2016 until 2019 was when I'm in university life. At first, I want to keep writing in here but you see, I didn't. (Sorry me because I couldn't complete my bucket-list). The days, weeks, months and years in u...

Woah ! Back here again for a very long time Just have to write this because I don't want to lose all the sweet little things that happen in my life. I'm so grateful for all the nikmat that Allah had given to me. Family as my backbone, friends that helping me learn a true relationship-of-friendship, things that I can buy, life as a student, people that TouchnGo and most importantly a peaceful way to live with Allah in our heart. I'm just grateful of everything that happen in 20 years of me, Alhamdulillah. Today I learned that, everything happens for a reason. Coincidence meet up with an old friends makes me more appreciate people who have been there for me (well, at least it's for a little thing). A friend who you trust and you can share a "salted caramel" things is a friend you should keep. Even though  you're not keeping in touch with them or you guys are not a BFF, try not to forget them at the very least. It's a warm and cozy day for me....

Hey there fellas. I think I need to keep my brain active by writing start from now. Fyi, I am officially one of a university students since last weeks. And I continue my studies at University Pendidikan Sultan Idris, Tanjung Malim. Yes, a teacher to be. But you know what, everybody is a teacher. Mengajar walaupun satu perkataan pun we called a teacher too rite? (akak abang fasi kat sini selalu cakap camtu , i think, ada benarnya jugak) I can’t believe and still do not believe what did I take for my courses. Yaww, arabic language is seriously hard, why did choose this mehhh. By hooked or by crooked, I shall not repeat even one semester. I am very super anxious for this. Not ready yet. Tapi masa tetap berlalu. Hari first class pun dah dapat assingment. Well, we couldn’t say anything because we realised, we are in university now. Hello dyla, you dah nak masuk 20. Sedar sikit okay.  First week, you could tell how busy my life is. With packed orientation schedul...

Assalamualaikum there.  Hey it has been a long time I didn’t write here. And my head cramp ouch its hurt because dah lama sangat tak menulis. Grammar tunggang terbalik mintak ampun ye.  First of all, ramadhan kareem for all muslims in the world. Semoga ramadhan kali ini lebih baik daripada tahun-tahun sebelumnya. So today is the first day of fasting, how was it? Ngeh... I’m having stomachache hahahaha so funneyh !  Second, I can’t wait for my degree intake this september. Its have been 6 months I’m at home and had to wait for another 3 months roughly for continue my study. But Alhamdulillah, I’ve spent two weeks at the Two Holy Mosque in the world; Masjid Nabawi, Madinah and Masjidil Haram, Mekah. Green Dome, Makam Rasulullah (Peace Be Upon Him), Masjid Nabawi, Madinah. Where all the peace took place. The place that shine so bright. Kaabah, Masjidil Haram, Mekah. The place you wouldn't want to leave. I’m grateful to Allah for giving m...

What would you do when you are upset over something? Some might say they hear their favourite music, exercise to make them forget or even eat a bar of chocolate. Well for me, I imagine. Sometimes, when I feel sad or angry or another negative feelings fill me up, I took a moment, sitting alone and ignore the surrounding. People might say I daydreaming or something but as you know, at that moment, I sketch my wonderland in front of me. Not by pencil or a pen, but just imagination. It is enough for me to bring back my happiness.  I would imagine that I’m at the airport, buying my ticket to random places and hope on that plane. By the time I arrived at my destination, I would search for 5 star hotel and live in a luxury suite. Pretending that I am that I’m one of the rich people.  Another day, I would imagine that I’m traveling with my buddies to random beach and go surfing. When the reality is, I can’t swim.  I would imagine that I’m sky-d...

#Sebelum baca entry ni, sila play lagu Bersama Bersatu. KENA PLAY ! Assalamualaikum :) Alkisah nya tentang kem … huhuhu “ Weh, macam mana ni weh …. alaaa taknak pergi lahh …. masa tak cukup dooo , final dah nak dekat …. kau rasa ?” Haa itulah perasaan mula-mula sebut pasal kem. Dan sampai hari kem tu pun, masih tak percaya yg aku kena pergi kem ni. Well, it’s not about kem jati diri something-like-that tapi ini kem , kem kami. Kem untuk STAMMERS. Kem untuk buat kami mendapat sebuah kejayaan.  3 Oktober - 4 oktober ; Tarikh keramat , kem ini berjalan dengan lancar. Perasaan bercampur-baur sepanjang aku berada di kem. Tak suka, sedih, sakit, gembira, gelak ketawa…. semua ada, macam-macam adaa. Yelah mana taknya tak suka, satu sebab keadaan kem tu, dengan biliknya macam kabin and satu sebab lagi bilik airnya, payah lah nak cakap (alhamdulillah masih ada air) walaupun terpaksa mandi dlm bilik air lelaki . Hahahahaha kesian mereka terpaksa tungguu kami mandi lam...

Well hey again there . Its been so long I didn't share something here . Writing mode was off back then because I was really pack with my studies , exams and some shit-and-beauty of life . I realised that some of my friends are heading to their final of semester 1, and me , I have a month before my really-final-exam . I tell you study life is seriously tiring but it is what that can make us to be useful in the future . There is no wasted time in studies . So don’t be bored . I have a month to complete all the weakness and gather all my strength to boom my result . And I’m sure I can do it . It’s nothing if you just at the same level from where you begin until you finish the game . Try challenge yourself to the upper level . And believe in yourself . Trust in Allah . Think about your parents . Think about you , yourself . Ask yourself, what would you be another next ten years ?  I wrote this for encouraging myself because I was doomed with my trial result earlier . It’s seri...

I warn you. Don’t read if you are scared of accident, blood or something like that or maybe worse.  What would you do when something bad happen in front of your eyes? What would you feel when you see it?  I cried all day long. And I found myself still crying while typing this. And I guess I have a little trauma today.  There was 4 little baby bird trying to cross a street. And they were soo cute. Line up in pair and walking together. They took about 3 minutes to cross half of the street and when they were so near to the end, a car or most accurate is proton saga rush of and … hit one of the little bird. In front of my eyes. The three were frozen at that sight and so do I. Looking at their friend or sister or  brother kena lenyek depan mata diorang. Kau rasa ? They were still small in size and of course they couldn't fly at first. So what do you expect? that they run like a lightning ? Whaatt … There was nothing left when I tried to save it. There was...

Okay . Assalamualaikum and hai for you who read this . I'm updating this on phone so I don't know what it would looks like on my blog. I feel like tonight will be a long night. Because i cant watch TV and my laptop is nowhere to found plus data in my phone is getting low. And people are too busy with their work. Okayh what I really want to say here eh ? HMMMMMM OH ITS BEEN A WEEK SINCE MY MIDTERM EXAM and i dont know what the result would turn out. My life is being miserable i guess, for this two weeks. *Rasa macam aku bercerita pulak aih ... K See the picture ? Yepp , I've been holding on towards it . Since I know what to do in my life hahahahahahahahaha. Just want to share it with you gaiss, mana lah tau boleh jadi pembakar semangat untuk hangpa semua :) *p/s : Yang kembar pakai baju sama tu , belanja selfie sikit. Yang serabai tu, tolong sikat rambut. Yang cun-cun, ayu-ayu tu jangan lupa doa sebelum makan hahahahahahaha. Kepada si riang-riang , apesal kau tak boleh b...

The scariest thing in my life is a dream See, I’m a lot lonelier than I seem I’m afraid to fall asleep Because I feel the nightmares creep In one nightmare I’m alone No one but me is in my zone I pray to god for just one friend But I’m alone until the end Another dream it starts the same But the way it ends brings more pain In this dream I have friends to see But it’s not long before they leave In both dreams I feel depressed My mind can’t take all the duress And that’s about when it appears To put an end to all my fears It seems such a little thing For all the relief that it brings A small white bottle filled with pills I take them all, my pain it kills At first I die then I awaken Disappointed, feeling shaken That dream-death seemed so appealing An end to thought and pain and feeling Every night my dream self dies Without so much as a goodbye But there I am in my bed Still alive but no less dead

Hye and assalamualaikum , Aku ternampak satu post ni di tumblr, I’m kinda a tumblr-addict anyway. Cerita tentang teman. Bukan niat untuk curi idea si dia, tapi pinjam kata-katanya untuk dijadikan cerita. Inilah kata-kata si gadispianist : " Dalam hidup ini mesti akad ada sorang kawan yang kau rasa dia bukanlah sesiapa tapi dah macam part of your life, your family, semua cerita hidup kau sampai ke kisah family kau dia tahu. Waktu kau susah, waktu kau sakit, waktu kau dapat berita gembira ke atau time tu kau tengah menangis sampai taktau nak luah kat sesiapa, orang pertama yang kau cari adalah dia. Yang hari-hari kau bosan dialah orang pertama yang kau texting,yang kau ajak hang out yang kau rasa tak bestnya pergi mana-mana kalau tak ada dia. Yang kalau keluar pastu terjumpa barang feveret or makanan feveret dia ke mesti kau teringat. Yang selalu tanya kau dah makan ke belum, sihat ke tidak,pergi mana-mana kasi tahu. Yang selalu beri kau kata-kata semangat walau time t...

Hai Assalamualaikum hihi. Guess what, harini kan amik result spm. And heww habis satu chapter.  My result ? Not interesting but Alhamdulillah . I can’t write tonight . But still I want to share . First of all, thank you to all my friends and teachers and especially my parents. Even my result is not like I wanted, but they gave me hope, gave me advice and so on. I’m really grateful for them who doesn’t ask me about my result or compare it to the highest. And I’m really grateful too for them who understand me. Hahaha ni nak bagi ucapan ke nak share ni adoyai. But still ! I’m really grateful. And congratulations to Salwa, Aida, Amin, Faiz, Amal, Kimi, Zul, Akram, Ayuni, and Imran !! Did I miss anyone else…? Okay dunno. Really proud of them hihi And thanks too for them who comforted me especially RAIHANA KIUTTTT ! Muah muaah ! Because of her , I became more courage, became more ease and even though we didn’t see each other much she still by my side. Cuddle konon eh, aku sleep ...

You can dream Nobody can stop Live with your dream And fly freely ; The dream is alive The dream is yours Why asking ? Why bothering ? Nobody cares about your dream Make your personal imagination comes true  🌾 

When people ask me, “ What will you do in your future ? “ I’ll said ; My dream is, I wanna own a bookstore + library + cafe . Before I achieve that, I’m gonna make sure I’ll study smart . And in my study, I just don’t want the certification, I want knowledge. For that is a must.  And when people ask, “Why would you wanna build something like that ?” I’ll said ; Because, I would be very happy if teenagers spend there and gain some knowledge rather than spending their time at shopping mall. And, place like that will not bore them because that is their style. Hanging and chatting. Plus some reading, it would be very good isn’t ? Reading is to mind what exercise is to the body. It is wholesome and bracing for the mind to have faculties kept on the stretch - Frank M. Garafola

Hey guys, umm well today is the registration day of STAM. It's going well but there was slightly trouble. Yeah I've finished the what-to-do-and-what-to-buy sort of things. On my way to school this morning, I searched for my identity card (IC) and I found nowhere ! At first I just calm down cuz I thought that mum held it from yesterday. When I ask her, she said "no, its not with me". How terrific I am at that moment ! I searched thoroughly , here and there. I felt like I just wanna shake the whole house. Mum started babbling to me, said that I was mistaken and cuai and bla bla bla .. Lastly, I had to do a report at police station, saying that I lost my IC. Luckily the inspector in charge was not so furious , lol. So in the end , I had to do a new IC. Been charged for MYR80 and my photo taken were.. such a - lol . So tired from this. But Alhamdulillah I survived today challenges. Hew.

Dear Jenny Han, I read your book called To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before. It’s amazing at first. How the letters had been sent by an anonymous. How Lara Jean’s fake relay become her love life. And how she arranged their family after her sister went to Scotland. The flow of the story is phenomenal ! You wrote the story like it was your story. Incredible ! I love it. But I’m also frustrated of how the ending. Ugh, you should write some more about the ending of Lara Jean’s love life. Or you wanted the readers to assume the ending ? It’s mysterious duh. If you want me to tell the ending , I would say Lara Jean and Peter Kavinsky become a true couple. While her sister, Margot have a long-lasting relationship with John. Hahaha such a cliche. Well at least it have an ending (for me).  BTW, overall, I love your story !!!  Yours, D

Dear Reen, It'd been 10 years since you have gone. I miss you a lot. I'm writing this when mom and dad had fallen asleep. Since your death, things have change around us. You are my idol, my only sister that I love, the one that I want to be. But people say that we should be ourself. Now that you left me, I seems to realise that it is true. But still, you are my role model (well at least for me). When you left us, dad was so shocked. He loses he only proud-of-daughter. I still remember when he cried at the waiting room. Mom , on the other  side, just pray for you and me, I felt like a bomb had exploded and all I could do was silent. You left me hanging but it makes me big girl with small age. I'm more mature-well I guess. I'll write to you later. Looks like everything is slow right now. Yours, D

Dear Adam, What did you do when it's the day of your father's birthday ? Did you show your true feelings to him ? Well, today is my father's birthday. He's 55 now. I can't believe it he is that old. You know what, I still remember when I was a kid , I'd sleep with his hand in mine. And now, he is 55. I still can't believe it. Sometimes, a daughter can be more giddy with his father right? Telling stories or tell him soo many feelings, love and so on. But, I just can't let it show. I just can pray for him to be happy and healthy. I hope he know that I truly love him. Now that he is and old man, my only old man, I wish he take care of his health, I wish I can make him proud, I wish I can get him what he want. I wish I can repay what he had done to raise his daughter and other kids. I'm grateful to have him as my dad. Can you tell him that I love him? That I'm thankful? I'm very happy just thinking you would do that for me. If I'm not in ...

Dear Ana Dellaira, You give me inspired when I’m reading one of your books. It’s called “Love letters to the dead”. I thought I can use your idea in mine. Well, I kinda love the way that letters we share our story. So I come up with “ Letters to the Strangers “. Yeah, you sort of a strangers to me cuz we don’t meet right? Today I just wanna share about my new year. As usual, I don’t go anywhere. Sitting at home, doing some work chores, helping my mom with dishes and reads. I wonder what did you do on your new year. Everytime the first day of new year, I’ll be thinking of soo many things. I thought of what would I do throughout the year, of what will I become in the future, will I achieve my goals ? I keep dreaming of me and my friends go travelling with my black mustang, driving, laughing, eating. Its not possible right ? -One day maybe You know, I feel that our time getting shorter and short that we didn’t even realise we gonna step another year. So my wish on this year, ...